desp_programmer

Thanks @warrenb. Hopefully this helps.

Thanks, but the most difficult part is to convince myself that it's not my fault. It always seems my fault.

Not much has changed. My diet, routine etc is the same. My problem is mainly due to wonky brain chemistry, but I haven't faced such an episode in a couple of years.

This, exactly! I have problem sleeping early at night. Thoughts and anxiety prevent me from sleeping. I don't have insomnia, I feel very sleepy, but very afraid and restless.

Also, I get overwhelmed by any task at hand. It starts getting procrastinated. Fear creeps in. Confidence takes a hit.

Thanks @alansmitheebk. Your words give me courage to fight back.

Hey, I tried emailing you, but it bounced back.

Wow, waking up early helps? I generally find it difficult waking up early.

Thanks @neurohax. Your advice will help.

Yep, my problem solving skills have taken a hit in the past few months. The progress is slow. I haven't been able to put enough hard work, it just seems pointless. I hope it gets better. Thanks

I do have a therapist, but not a counselor. I will try and find one. I have a very supportive spouse.

Thanks for your kind words.