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I'll give them a shot.

I'm not sure what you expect from a spammer

Actually I was commenting on the only gay people I've met. They just want a fuck-buddy and I don't want to lower myself to that.

Orlando, FL.

> For one thing, closeted guys in their late 20s aren't boyfriend material.

I also don't live with or have anything to do with my parents. I just meant to say that I don't know anyone personally who can help me figure out why I'm so bad at this.

> It sounds like you want a relationship and you're not doing anything about it that works to get one.

Yeah, but since I have no experience (and no one to talk to -- parents don't know I'm gay, for example), I don't know what works.

> I bet, after you get into a relationship and you reflect on all the times you hung out with other people, you'll gradually realise there were plenty that liked you, and you just didn't see it, or act on it, at that time.

I very rarely meet anyone who's openly gay; when I do, they're taken.

Also, it should probably be worth mentioning, I'm not very attractive. I like to think I have a good personality, but I don't naturally attract peoples' interest.

Yeah 3:

Being gay is kind of terrible. Especially if you want a committed monogamous relationship.

I actually work two jobs right now. One's a day job with a two hour commute (each way), and I'm trying to help one of my friends start a business too. Only the first one pays.

I do need to spend more time on myself, but there are too many demands for my time right now :(

Hahaha :3

I don't think I'll make it to FC this or next year. Maybe Megaplex in Kissimmee.

My FA is InfoSecFurry if you or anyone wants to bark my way.

> enjoy good sex. it's one of life's greatest gifts.

Yeah, that is never going to happen. Not for me. I am 1. gay and 2. ugly.

I'm sorry you think the undisclosed circumstances of my life are bogus and that I am a dishonest person. From a throwaway account to hide my identity, there's no possible defense I can mount against an accusation of dishonesty. But my circumstances aren't as simple as "do I want to see a doctor? [y/n]"

    """
    ground hog day / kill yourself. literally, kill yourself, but do it FOR something. what would you kill yourself to achieve?
    """

This is probably dangerous advice. When I was deep into the downward spiral, I had decided that I wouldn't commit suicide until no one needed me for anything, so I began to make plans to make all of my friends/family rich (start a software company, use the money to help them start their own dream companies, put all my personal money into retirement savings for everyone else) because they were all I had. (No relationships ever during my life, and at my age it's unlikely that will ever change.)

When I went to execute on step 1 of this plan, life beat me down harder and I decided to stick where I was not add more stress to the situation, which made me feel useless and worthless.

My point being, telling people who were once suicidal to kill themselves is probably not a good idea, even if it's for the shock and awe factor.

Sorry, I don't live in Silicon Valley where everyone has a six figure salary and the solution for feeling bad is to see a doctor. So many of the reasons why I don't stem from money issues, but also time issues (I'll probably never get days off, vacation time, etc. at my current gig, and that eats up 11-13 hours per day including travel because of the bus system here).