You sound like you might be on the verge of becoming depressed (if you aren't already there). There are also some unsubtle hints that you're experiencing impostor syndrome.
You aren't alone. I suggest looking around and seeing what resources are available to you. Personally, I benefit immensely from weekly therapy, but this is not available to everyone.
You aren't alone. I suggest looking around and seeing what resources are available to you. Personally, I benefit immensely from weekly therapy, but this is not available to everyone.