ikarous13

Sharing aspects your inner world with another person, especially a person who is nonjudgmental, may be quite a validating and relieving experience for you.

A therapist can't and won't make you talk about anything you don't want to talk about. What you share (or don't) is entirely up to you.

You sound like you might be on the verge of becoming depressed (if you aren't already there). There are also some unsubtle hints that you're experiencing impostor syndrome.

You aren't alone. I suggest looking around and seeing what resources are available to you. Personally, I benefit immensely from weekly therapy, but this is not available to everyone.