solouncomen

Yes, the company has hired two engineers apart from me, and they seem more integrated than I am (one of them was hired a month after I started). Next week, a new hire will begin as well. We are all in the same age range: 27 to 39 years old.

I normally start to click with people after 1 or 2 months in the job. I'm worried because 4 months have passed by, and I have zero connections. However, as I said, the job is enjoyable so far.

I might need to check my mental health, but I wasn't depressed before starting here. Last year I was in another position, and I was content during that 3-month short contract and didn't have any problems to bond with coworkers.

I started motivated, became sad after a couple of months, and now I’m struggling mentally (it’s starting to affect my performance).

They do see me probably as “standoff-ish”. However, I have tried to fake my attitude to look more engaged or positive, but eventually I feel disconnected, and I fall back into a depressive status.

It bothers me because they have been nice with me, and there is nothing wrong with them as a team. The fact that they are good people, makes me feel even worse.