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I see everything burn in the fire of time. I cannot hold onto anything, for all that I see/feel/think is temporary. Nothing gives lasting happiness. Even the "I" that wants to reach happiness is temporary.

I give birth to thoughts I'm attached to, for I hope to find joy and happiness in them. So convinced to know who I am, I live in a prison of my tendencies.

So, life is my teacher, and living it is my spiritual practice. I'm not afraid to face all of its facts with total honesty. I'm not going to ignore anything or put aside what is painful.

When falling, would you try to grab a rope that is not attached to anything?

Most ideas, thoughts, practices, and religions are that rope. It gives you a false sense of validity, happiness, and hope.

Nothing in this life can save you, for they are burning in the fire of time too. But all can teach you about their nature which is the same as yours. So face them with total honesty.

If you face these facts and get depressed, you are still attached to your thoughts about your version of "reality." Depression is a form of resistance. It is the opposite of excitement. Both show that you are taking sides and not being totally honest.

You are the thoughts, emotions, and body. But you are also way more!

There is a tendency to fight our way out of every problem. But what we truly need is to accept the problem, take responsibility and look for the root cause.

That is true “fighting”. But most try to destroy the symptoms so they can continue their path and usually continue the root cause.

Of course finding the root cause is not easy and it takes one to study oneself

I highly recommend the following book to everyone (including the “healthy”)

The 12 Stages of Healing: A Network Approach to Wholeness Book by Donald M. Epstein and Nathaniel Altman

The fact that you need to learn so many lessons while using docker shows how complex it is.

Aha, fear of mistake. Fear of others thinking I'm not good enough. Fear of loosing my job/status/life.

Fear rules life. Not even just humans but all animals and living creatures. You are not alone. It rules my life too. Now what is this fear? Why should I have it? Can I have no fear?

Trying to eliminate one fear is not enough, soon you'll be filled with another. In fact, fear fears itself.

I think fear is what conditions me into being who I am. The I, is built using different fears -- borders that should not be crossed. The fear of society, bad grade, loosing good status... oh, everything!

Now I ask myself, what is the point of maintaining this "I" if death is going to eliminate it. Because after all, it is too much work, constantly thinking/working to maintain a life that is marked as "APPROVED" by society, enforced by fear. Then once you get that "APPROVED" mark you fear loosing it... right?

Think about it. It is crazy. I'm full of fear of crossing rules at this very moment of writing... what if people don't like my answer, what if that is grammatically incorrect. What is the point of this constant fear?

It is simple, we have all these fears in the hope of preventing the experience of pain. It is ultimately the fear of experiencing pain, discomfort and ultimately death.

Now I have some suggesting... things that I do myself and have seen great improvement in my life having a lot less fear.

A) Study all your actions and see the trace of fear in all of them -- this opens up a world of understanding... soon you get it, it is all out of fear. Even love is mostly based on fear (but it does not have to be)

B) Eliminate the fear by thinking of death. Yes the most feared of all fears. We reject death and try to avoid it like any other fear, but with death it is even worse because it is the most feared, we go as far as subconsciously deny it. But if death does not work for you, face the experience that the fear is trying to prevent, face it, like a warrior (don't fight) but face it, and look at its eyes, is this the actual monster that you think it is? or is fear, the real monster?

C) Soon, a life that is driven by less fear, teaches you great important lessons, beautiful experiences that we miss because of these stupid fears. These experiences are already happening but we cannot see because of fear.

Now let me talk about the experiences... eating is 100x more enjoyable, loosing weight is 100x easier, heck even waiting in traffic light is enjoyable (when there is no fear you enjoy your own being). Also one's reaction to difficult situations is going to be 100x better when fear does not rule it all.

Enjoy a life with no fear, like a warrior, go to work, own the moment. If you get fired, just or unjust, face it, do the next thing. Speak up and listen with no fear. Also realize that others, your boss and co-workers are also driven by fear. Soon you feel not only your own action but other people actions, when I say feel, I mean you can actually feel their action with empathy and love -- after all they are suffering from the same monster: fear.

Also, most people that I talk to about this, think that once you eliminate all these fears and tendencies, you become a man of no action. That is not true, fear is defining the reaction, not actions. Once you are free of reacting to situations then you free to act instead of react -- this is very important to understand.

Also some people at first, once they look, they become afraid of having all these fears (again, another fear). Don't be afraid of having fears, own it, face this person full of fears, face the "I", then ask, who is the one looking at this, with no fear? and then remain in that state, all the time.

Wish you the best!

It’s like advising someone with an arrow in his heart to not smoke—who cares, he has a few moments left anyways.

OOP is enough of complexity to kill most projects—and yet we discuss the dangers of ORM.

“Object-oriented programming offers a sustainable way to write spaghetti code.” -PG

> In my own conception of life, I just don't understand how people can not feel lost if they don't create something that stems from their own selves.

Then you must ask why those who have accomplished their dreams (doing what they want) still feel lost. I know many.

The real question is: what can complete the emptiness that I feel?

The answer is simple: Nothing! There is no emptiness -- stop imagining one.

Do what your heart desires, experience life, create stuff, change the world as you wish, but remember, oh my friend, you are not just this!

I really like this:

> However, silence was a big part of traditional music, in the past.

A glass is useful because of its empty space. You need the emptiness to fill it up with something. For inventions/ideas/startups, you need some empty space in your mind.

Think of a bored computer (one that is not used to its maximum capacity). It's like a computer that uses swap memory v.s. one that has a few GBs of free RAM. Which one would you rather use?

I say, it is good to be bored and stay bored -- don't rush to fill up the empty space.