markhollis
Joined 10 years ago
Joined 10 years ago
What do I do in my situation? I feel like being in despair. I feel like I don't have any other options. Clearly, this situation feels like suicide for my career.
I was recently diagnosed with ASD, bipolar disorder type 2 and depression, for what it's worth.
https://existentialcomics.com/blog/1/How_to_study_philosophy...
I like courses or philosophical works, which focus on a common themes, common threads. That allows one to see more connections across different thinkers.
One instance of this is John Vervaeke's Awaking from the meaning crisis (which isn't only philosophy, but also cognitive science).
Other courses like that are those from John Searle (philosophy of language, philosophy of mind).
Hubert Dreyfus has a course on existentialism in literature and film.
Thinking of it, there is also a channel called Like Stories Of Old. The maker publishes video-essays, which are often philosophical in tone and reference existential thinkers like Kierkegaard.
My own journey into philosophy started with Wittgenstein (apart from an introduction in Greek Philosophy in high school).
Some resources I have used are:
* video lectures by Richard Borcherds
* Lecture notes by Andreas Gathmann (https://www.mathematik.uni-kl.de/~gathmann/class/alggeom-200...)
* This blog: https://rigtriv.wordpress.com/ag-from-the-beginning/
* An infinite large napkin, by Evan Chen (https://venhance.github.io/napkin/Napkin.pdf)
It also found it helpful to learn some (algebraic) number theory, to get a sense of where some of the motivation comes from (e.g. elliptic curves, modular forms). Grothendieck's work is abstract, but he was always motivated by concrete problems (e.g. Weil conjectures).