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I'm afraid I've misunderstood what you've written. Are you being sarcastic?

Of course, it's my fault if I don't manage to progress as quickly as the job requires. On the other hand, the decisions taken by management not to hire experienced developers for cost reasons and to favour state-subsidised student contracts is not.

It's my fault if I don't manage to organise the development properly and therefore don't meet the deadlines. It's not my fault if managers change their expectations/features literally every week because they have "the big vision".

I'm not denying that this kind of job is enjoyable, compared to the factory jobs I had as a student.

I know how lucky I am compared to the workers I know and the working class in general.

However, that doesn't negate the fact that the organisation of the company is problematic, not just for me but for the other employees.

What positions have you applied for? Do you have any idea why it didn't work out?

We work in a rather regulated field so yes a junior with a good understanding of business logic has an advantage.

> Another common pattern in these startups are what I name after the MMO tank+DPS

Well seen, it's a real position for the sustainability of the developers.

> There is one thing to always remember: Never accept responsibility without having the power to change things.

This resonates a lot with me, I think it represents the situation well.

I remember a meeting during which the marketing manager / graphic designer (a student is cheaper) was asked to re-design part of a consumer app. So I asked that she be able to make final decisions about any changes so that I wouldn't lose too much in going back and forth for approval.

Management said no, they had the final say.

A nice illustration of what you just said.

Thank you very much, I keep your recommendations preciously.

I can't, so that's the strategy. I have to activate stealth mode, though.

Thank you for your support.

Perhaps I don't owe anything to the bosses, having done the job as best I could despite my limited skills.

However, I don't want to "let down" my fellow developers if I decide to leave.

Relatives and friends have also told me this.

My latent impostor syndrome tells me that I should already be happy to have a job, but that's clearly not enough. The national average salary in my country for a junior JS dev is double that.

What do you mean by early-burnout?

Does it includes overtime, phone calls outside of supposed working hours, insomnia, impostor syndrome, working sometimes during evenings?

Have you experienced anything similar?

We're not curing cancer (...sadly) for sure.

Where does this expression come from?

I have a good example of "leap of faith". A close developer friend of mine decided to leave the development agency where he was working for fairly similar reasons. He then managed to find a job at a much bigger development company. He's still amazed that I have to wear 5 different hats when he's only wearing one, with no deadlines, just PRs and 3 times the salary.

I'll do it, maybe giving a bit more context and detail is important. But I don't want to take up too much of your time.

So you took the risk of changing gear and following your inner motivations. Was it worth it in the end?

Here's one of the pitfalls.

You are repeatedly told that you are "in charge" of projects etc., but the decisions taken by superiors are always imposed, because they have "the vision". Even if this means adding 2/3 heavy features to be developed and changing the design system a few weeks before major releases.

Technically, they could operate with Excel spreadsheets rather than software, it would just take more time.

I have to admit my negativity, sorry. I feel tired.

It's a good opportunity, of course, but it will absolutely be necessary to succeed in changing the balance of power.

I appreciate the logic of personal progression regardless of the outcome for the company. Have you experienced this?