fallowkevin

>I am transgender, and Google makes it quite difficult to transition one's everything to an account with your new chosen name. As part of that, I've noticed

Sorry, I saw that and misread. My bad! I wish HN had a delete posts feature.

>I know that's kind of a generic wish, even sounds to my ear like a generic platitude, but nonetheless I mean it.

Believing you doesn't make it hurt less. We had a lot of young folks from queercon pass through the village I attended last I was at Defcon.

I doubt I'll be able to afford to go back, and it breaks my heart that a lot of younger folks don't seem to realize how... violently unwelcoming... people used to be, even in supposedly queer friendly spaces.

It's not fun to spend 16 hours "volunteering" hoping someone will appreciate the gesture enough to give you a fair interview, and instead end up laid of from yet another nonprofit with no nest egg even someone in a non FAANG would have... and thus... homeless, absent support from family.

I believe you, it just makes me sad knowing you're probably being entirely truthful.

Anyways I promised this was a throwaway.

this nym has expired, folks can ping [email protected] if they want to continue the conversation (see bio)

Who among us hasn't wondered if the BSSID attached to a phone calling itself "FBI AGENT" actually was, so they plugged it into Wigle to see if it ever also appeared at the FBI... building?

(These signals have been useful for a variety of people for over ten years.)

Peak advertising has come home to roost as folks are shedding reoccuring subscriptions to things like the N in FAANG. Companies that have intrinsic value are worth applying to, as was always the case. A lot has changed in a short time, and some seem to forget that.

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Keep two diaries. One on paper, one on the computer.

People will invade one or the other, but rarely both.

Twitter was good for this before Elon fucked it up.

I had lists of scientists, who'd share their work and that of others.

Google could go for true diversity? (Including economic diversity)

It's wonderful they're hiring trans folks like yourself, but speaking as someone who fought hard outside the org for equality, it seems like it's a rainbow of people who went to CMU or Stanford (or other top tier school), and absent having a "partner" in the romantic sense to get you in, you'll never be lifted out of the precarity that drove many of us to learn to hack in the 2000s.

(For context, I'm homeless and writing this in a coffee shop with terrible wifi over Tor. I don't begrudge those who are doing well, but I deeply regret that I sit here reading posts like these and feeling like some folks have advantages I never will because I'm "just" a queer, autistic guy from a lower middle class catholic home.)

Do they have a tiny bit, kind of like how you'd get carded for ODoul's at a self checkout in... my state... despite not having barely any uh "active ingredient"?

it's not creepy to talk to someone about mutual interests, it's when you try to get them back to your bunk that things go off the rails

>>I don't want to kiss ass to war criminals.

>Context?

Iraq was a war crime and CMU doesn't have any distinction between the FFRDC and the uni. And the security staff at Defcon, a lot are ex CIA or special forces.

>I've had someone legit tell me they didn't want to associate with me implying that it was bad for business despite the fact they helped me personally financially. The message between the lines was that somehow, they thought I was going to cause issues with attendance in their classes or association. Meanwhile, they are probably the most prominent member of the community. Absolutely ridiculous grandstanding.

No one from the so called hacker community has given me so much as a couch to crash on, I don't feel welcome in it.

I used to travel more, the "hostel people" were quite kind, but that's nothing to do with hacking per se and I'm at an age I'd be intruding if I got a bed in a dorm. (People don't use them like they used to, everything is a party now it seems -- the last place I stayed that threw people out for making noise in the sleeping areas and the like went out of business.)

> A lot of white knights in the community as well who hide dirty secrets and make big noise about other people to deflect attention from themselves.

Yeah I knew at least one guy who handed out a lot of unwanted hugs who now rolls with the so called badass army. People are performative.

Maybe I'm conflating being supportive of Trump / Trump hats at cons with literal swastikas.

(The few who donned them at Defcon were not given a warm welcome, to put it mildly.)

I was very jet lagged and had self medicated a lot due to death threats plus being in an abusive living situation (so desparately seeking employment to take me out of precarity) -- I wasn't taking detailed notes.

But it was a prominent person who made the claim, maybe they were inventing a reason to avoid DE, who knows.

There's been some dark things in the community

No.

The line between gray and black is so fuzzy it's best to keep such things offline, thanks for the lead on purely technical discussions :3

>The high cocoa bars from Lindt or other brands are definitely a different vibe. I personally think they're pretty well differentiated here though, with a gigantic 70% or 95% on the front. But if you're unfamiliar with that type of flavour it would be a shock to the system and isn't really my vibe.

Yeah, I don't know if it's that that last 5% makes a difference or one too many cake donuts demolished my sense of taste, but the one I got was 100% cocoa and... just... not good.

I'd have rather paired my quad espresso with a savory hard boiled egg.

But, thankfully, it was just one teensy square, so I guess the experiment was worth it for the price -- I'd have been much less amused if I'd dropped a lincoln on that thing ;-)

>I guess what you're saying holds true for a lot of things, like people thinking that bitter dark roasted coffee being associated with quality, when it's often the opposite.

I started getting espresso partly because I do want bitter... but I also don't really chance getting a light roast anymore, half because it'll make me too amped but also half because when I do shell out for it, it's rarely good.

(I'm a big fan of Philz, and pourover in general, but there aren't really pour over coffee shops in my area and I'd rather keep it that way than import more Californians.)

>I agree about the cortado, it bothers me how much sugar people get in their system without realizing quite how much or how bad it could be. If all the sugar you got was from an obvious dessert, you probably would have a hard time over-injesting it.

I used to have an eating disorder -- I was quite heavy, and studied book after book on how to be social because I wanted a partner... turns out you seem much more charming when you're not 240lbs. People get so... obsessed with metrics, I suspect it's why studies show sociopaths love black coffee.

I see a lot of midwesterners that I suspect have basically induced dementia by not managing diabetes. Meanwhile, if I go down to the local gas station masquerading as a grocery store and try to make a healthy decision, I literally cannot buy a greek yogurt unless it's got fake strawberry or blueberry or whatever in it.

The Wikipedia article of the day was "Nazi persecution of homosexuals" for Holocaust Rememberance Day yesterday, and it's amazing how many people who have erased "gay" as an insult will continue to view making healthy choices as some kind of tell you're queer. Maybe it is, but it's darkly hilarious to watch folks induce brain rot to avoid lookin' gay, so sorry for a bit of a rant, but this nym, much like the texts I send on coffee shop wifi, will soon disappear when 24 hours have passed... and end up on a path where they will completely lose control of their minds and bodies as they panic that no one is obligated to be caregiver to an abuser.

Anyways, sorry for the wall of text, but... I've had too much caffeine to power through some unpleasant todos, and since marijuana is not legal here I have no way to even out ;-)

(A glass of white wine can help in that regard, but I quit drinking after HOPE went online that one summer. It sure took a lot of effort to convince people Defcon was like, seriously canceled, please, no really, do not come to Defcon it is online stay in your apartments you weird ass hick-i-mori)