defyonce

same, not like, for megacorps, but, in general, too tired of this plane of existence, and, nothing really interesting/exciting?

I recently started getting back into interviewing after 8 years of working at one company.

And Leetcode is not the worst part of it.

Modifying CV, applying, hostile forms, receiving rejection after rejection. Not getting what I am missing.

Leetcode in this scenario is puzzle solving game with clear rules, progress and success definition.

Some of the problems are genuinely fun, like dynamic programming. Some of them are just, "you have to know the trick".

In my case, i would never be able to even get an actual interview if not for these technical screens where you solve a problem and not try to persuade another human to give you a chance.

I run 4 days a week (4km per day), fast for two days (72 hours total) do two gym strength workouts, one sauna session, and two Zumba classes. I also do cold showers daily. Floating once a week, facial ferment therapy once a week.

And still, I feel like hell today (and it is only Friday morning)

I used to run half a marathon every Thursday in a fasted (36 hours) state, but now I can't, I became weak and frail. Aging gets us all!

if humans stop age and live for thousands years, then there is no need for specific replacement rate.

Alternative, make it possible to have kids without heavy burden on the woman body.

Alternative, make it possible to become pregnant at 50-60 years.

This is all research vectors that we should work on, and not doom on hypothetical what ifs in the future!

I am piloting a super sophisticated mech that is a literal home (primordial soup) for other tiny specs that cooperate together.

And more and more I ask this question. Why? There is only recursive answer, to copy itself, so the copy could continue piloting.

It is poetic and really weird.

Unless we learn how to live for billions of years.

Top 5 Restaurants (Female vs Male Preferences)

  Female Picks:
  ------------------------------------------------
  1. Big Apple Brunch          | Hell's Kitchen     | 9.2/10
  2. Pietro Nolita             | Nolita             | 8.6/10
  3. Kanü Bar|Grill            | Hamilton Heights   | 8.5/10
  4. STK Steakhouse Downtown   | West Village       | 8.2/10
  5. Lighthouse Fish Market    | East Harlem        | 8.2/10
  
  Male Picks:
  ------------------------------------------------
  1. Lahori Kabab              | Kips Bay           | 2.3/10
  2. Big Arc Chicken           | East Village       | 2.5/10
  3. Hop Won Express           | Midtown East       | 3.1/10
  4. Subway                    | Hell's Kitchen     | 3.1/10
  5. Nica Trattoria            | Upper East Side    | 3.1/10

it looks like female => attractive

this, 100% i've been running 35km while fasted for 36 hours, and it is way more difficult than when you allow yourself to eat a snickers on the way.

now i am running my weekly half-marathons with something sweet, and it has been awesome. Like really no big deal.

just tell them something nonsensical. They are unable to take a hint and continue with the nonsense. They start to be stuck on local minima. All of them. Video/images/text. I haven't seen LLM that is able to take a hint and understand the hidden meaning in absurdity of following up.

there is infinitely larger amount of prompts that will break a model than prompts that won't break it.

you just have to search outside of most probable space

It just feels so good to think that I can just get out and forget all about it. It relaxes me, and it brings me tears of joy.

Yesterday I've spent 8 hours hoping that I could do a super easy task, I had to cry before I could focus and do that (it took me 15 minutes, mental preparation for it took me 7 hours).

The problem though, I haven't interviewed for 6 years and it is very likely that I will not find anything for at least a year.

Another problem, I don't feel like coding, ever. I've spent 15 years doing it and, in general, I am not passionate about it at all. I just don't want to do it anymore.

After I've written entire systems that serve ok (I hope). I just can't do a single if statement without DPDR symptoms anymore.

I am so thoroughly done, I just can't imagine doing this for another month. Boss knows, everyone else knows too. I sort of coast for a month and then it is likely that I am gone. I hope I will be gone on good terms.

The biggest question is what is next for me in life? I have absolutely no idea.

As a person who did 21km run in fasted state (didn't eat for 36 hours before) and then swam in a 7 degrees pond with ice, I can definitely say: NO.

I tried for 8 hours straight to code just a little bit, but was unable to. I guess that is burnout, or, in general, understanding that I am not interested in all this computer stuff anymore after doing it for 15 years.

If dev jobs disappear, I will finally be free from this

There is only one reason why my phone alerts: something gone wrong, and they need my attention.

I hate phone alerts with all my soul. I wish they never existed as a concept.