captainchris

Thanks for your well wishes.

Ms. Wojcicki and Mr. Pichai:

I need your help. Please open up 100% of your dossier on me so I can begin to regain a sense of normalcy. I need you to do this for me so I can come to grips with nonconsentually participating in your respective firms' data abuse and behavior control experiment practices.

Your non-response amounts to gaslighting. You count on civilians submitting their private lives to you without questioning what you do with their data. You are not responsible stewards of our personal data. Cybersecurity is only half of the responsibility equation. You are a failure and blight on society regarding social responsibility. I already know you will not respond to me, a person who is adamantly opposed to your data abuse practices, and who is willing to wager eternity to protest your rule over our data.

You are primarily concerned with your own control, wealth, and power. Shame on you.

I was a software dev mgr for a multi data center hosting company, then became the technical cofounder for a startup. Mid 40's in the USA in a great climate (won't freeze).

Failed lives are hard to identify root causes. I didn't adapt to society. We only have control over ourselves, ultimately (despite the notion at malicious evil corps like Google that automated behavior control is possible).

Hey, note for Susan Wojcicki. You are an irresponsible sociopath. I've thoroughly vocalized my grievances about your firm's data abuse practices, which fell on (your) deaf ears.

If Google agrees to open up 100% of their dossier they secretly maintain on me, I'll stick around. Otherwise, I plan on committing suicide this week.

Yes. Failed startup and haven't coded in four years. Ears blown out from a failed non-starter music career. And, stopped being able to process being part of a google-led surveillance society via no-opt-out malicious or amoral psyops that egregiously abuse my provided personal data and other undisclosed non-provided personal data in a soft-real-time stream-of-consciousness manner.

I am homeless. I have no address. On foot now, walking to get food, since I have no transportation of any kind. I have about $80 on cashapp and apple pay thanks to some folks here who tried supporting my renewed desire to write software again. That desire is gone and I would like to be gone.

My food stamps just got cancelled yesterday since I have no addr and since I missed required paperwork. It's the final straw that has pushed me to the end. I've been getting tumbled around and held under a rogue wave for years now and have reached a breaking point where my ability to avoid suicide is dissipating.

I am not likely to code or work again. Likely outcome is suicide by rope, which I hope to complete this week after the $80 runs out.

probably busy on a sunday mng

it'll get nuked shortly

sorry they flagged ur legit posts

Thanks for your boost.

I'll gladly take a fishing rod (used laptop with SSD and >=8GB RAM to code), if anyone has one to spare. I'll also work off a laptop at a favorable hourly rate.

Can fish; need a rod (laptop) and directions to a sufficiently stocked "special needs" river (low stress coding gig). Able to walk uphill in both directions to school (write robust code), while chewing bubblegum (DevSecOps wannabe).

Thanks for your genuine help.

I don't have a reddit account but could try tomorrow. I am ideologically opposed to using reddit but can override that and try anyway. It's a large community after all.

I have a lot of experience with plugs, muffs, musician-specific molded flat freq response earplugs, and noise cancelling headphones and earbuds.

Even using plugs and muffs doesn't work for loud power tools like a miter saw. The vibrations are too much. A small slip up with earmuffs and a single miter saw cut puts me in hell for days on end. I can't live in cities. I have issues in any structure generally, but have found that bose noise cancelling earbuds are good for sleep in a residential suburb/rural area.

Plugs increase my perception of T. Even covering my ear increases it.

Bose noise cancelling buds seem to alleviate the T. There are other brands that apparently are effective for managing T. iqbuds iirc. More $$$. I do not have any headphones or muffs at this time.

I was a prof. musician briefly, played loud rock music for a long time, worked in high end music studios, worked loud construction jobs incl'g concrete cutting, and somewhat frequented loud dance clubs as a teen. It added up to a reduced quality of life and struggle for the past >20 years.

I can get by on light noise jobs with buds and muffs, but surpisingly many contractors think I am a dork slinging wheelbarrows around with muffs on and won't bring me on public facing jobs.

Eventually, any sustained exposure to sound invokes stress, then anger. This has consistently been the case on any attempt to do blue collar work in recent years. The only solution that works is low stress (hence -- in part -- current situation of no coding for years), and low noise (I sleep in a peaceful spot in the countryside outdoors).

I am still walking all the time. I am very healthy as a result physically but working on top of that in any sustained capacity has been challenging.

I've exhausted resources here that will work. I can get rental assistance if I have a lease in hand. It's there for me but I need a place first. Getting a proper lease will require professional work and proof of recent income. Chicken / egg / hard boiled.

The shelters here are not suitable. I really just need to work in my profession, which is computers, build some capital and regroup. It's possible. Uphill is far more appealing to me now than constantly mulling suicide due to destitution. I've experienced a gnarly cycle of being partially housed to inadequately housed to unhoused, back and forth numerous times this past year. Each downgrade invokes more stress and helplessness. I'd like to try a different path now.

Yes, I've sought lots of help locally, have been robbed, conned, and exposed to criminality by drug users and the like. I've learned more than expected about street life and the struggles of the poverty wage class. It's a bitter sweet mix. A number of folks with little will give you the shirt off of their back. Humbling experience in many respects. I'm still here because many people don't view relationships merely as transactional. It's been an eye opener.

I've kept notes on help provided by others and would also like to compensate them in return when possible.

Perhaps someone will hire me for very lowball, low stress coding work. I can sling PHP, MySQL, Python, JS, Node, MVC frameworks, build API's or perhaps spend time learning TS or whatever you kids do. I have a lot of experience with Windows, Linux, Mac, I know AWS basics, automated test development processes, continuous integration, strong comprehension of business processes, etc. Background in EE/CS fundamentals. I've dabbled with many more languages and stacks. PHP/MySQL with or without a framework, and/or any modern front end framework are the most obvious fits where I can immediately produce.

Thus, no charity, just an advance to do practical work. Please don't throw something at me I don't know or can't easily learn. I don't know solidity or salesforce for instance and would probably fail trying to quickly ramp up on such tech.

FAANG etc are not in my future. I work best as a 1099 remotely on small/medium projects. I've independently managed complex monoliths up to 300 tables in a RDBMS but can work on granular archs as well.