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Came here also to point this out, because there is an easy to find solution that lacks only this property. I find this restriction somewhat unsatisfying though, because the easy solution does have the property that, for any smaller number of players, there is a subset that is fair for them (so you could manufacture these dice and resolve any number of players up to the number you have).

Requiring same size doesn't make it harder; you can take any solution and inflate the dice (take the lcm of all the sizes, duplicate the face numbers).

edit: oops i just double checked my construction and while they give equal go-first probabilities they don't give equal permutation probabilities...

after meditating regularly for a while, doing a noting practice produced a distinct shift for me on this point. I realized that most of the time, when I hear a sound there is also a momentary "shred" of visual/muscular thought that accompanies it. for example, when I hear a crow, there is a bit of black/feathery/tree-branch/etc. if this is interesting, you can find instructions from Shinzen Young online.

typing this up, I realize I'm not totally sure to what extent this is something that was happening before the practice vs something that developed from it [i.e. less habitual energy spent blocking things out], but either way I recommend it :)

attempt to interpret the parent comment more charitably: when different people who've shared a common experience try to put it into words, there is some consistency between what they write. the harder the experience is to verbalize, the harder it is to come up with meaningfully different precise descriptions of it, and the more aware you are of the limitations of language

personally, the post resonates strongly. focusing on this way of seeing has improved my life tremendously. based on the very little I know of you (your two posts) it sounds possible that the point isn’t landing. you seem to be living near the “control = safety/happiness” realm, where the high order bit of life is controllability.

try reading it again, and notice how little specific advice is given towards how to cultivate the sort of attention he’s pointing at (maybe his most concrete advice is in the form of a painting of an owl). are you convinced that by trying hard enough the future can belong to you, or that life owes you something? you can create an arbitrary amount of suffering for yourself by living that delusion (or the opposite one, that you can’t influence anything).

the notion expressed in the post is really worth trying, and simple, but hard to explain. one idea: the next time you see something you personally find beautiful (a flower, the sky? the fact that the earth supports you effortlessly?) you could investigate whether you did anything to “deserve” that.

if hoofprints in snow were legible as a book cover, an allusion to the Name of the Rose would be even better :)