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I hated math before and I thought I was gonna hate it in my whole life. Not until I had to study GMAT and it changed my life forever. I watched the GMAT problem solving explanation on Khan Academy. I think it was pretty simple math and fun to learn. easy to understand for math haters. It was pretty awesome. To me, math is the new door to the new world. I started reading books about math and related field like Physics. (Thinking in numbers by Denial Tammet, How Not to Be Wrong by Jordan Ellenberg. Cosmic Numbers: The Numbers That Define Our Universe by James D. Stein, Richard Feynman and etc. I think you get this, stay curious, stay open to learn. Hope this help and good luck! :)

I totally agree. I read various authors in one particular things. I try not to judge whether this book is “good” or “bad” but I try to observe the authors idea instead. Maybe I have lots of time to read and so reading books worth my time. In any books I’ve read, I learned something. Open minded reading changed my life, changed how I think, changed how I perceive. It is also leads me to discover different fields like neuroscience or quantum physics or Python programming. I’m quite surprised because I had always hated math and science in my teenage. Metaphorically, reading helps me see the size of the world as big as the size of the sun. (also helps improve my English)

From my experience, I had very very very bad panic attacked. Several months ago I pass out 3 times in a roll and having on going shortness of breathing. I was always afraid that my heart would stop beating. I didn’t take any medication but melatonin, I took it for 10 days to restart my bio clock(I had very bad sleeping problem) For 30 days straight, persistently, I practice deep breathing, writing journal in mindfulness and meditate 10 minutes a day before going to bed. I personally think that meditation helps me a lot to get through this. Although I still have (sometimes) shortness of breathing, but I feel more grateful and being a happier person. I have no fear of dying anymore. And of course, my mind changed….for better…. I am not an expert and I hack meditation on my own. If anyone wanna try, feel free to let me know. E-mail on my profile :)

Will we see the barge landing live on webcast?

I would agree with this. work less. spend time more on yourself. in my case I look for something new to learn. go to gym more often. and also take it easy and look for a new job.

Thanks! I wish you all the best for your career and future!

This is real mothership of drama queen. writing last night while I was drunk.so embarrassing and can not delete it. oh well. All I want to say is thank you everyone for your advice, sharing, encouraging!

Thank you everyone for your kind advice and encouragement. I really appreciate and can not express how much I feel thankful for this with my limited English. Since my older brother pass away. I never show weakness to anyone even my family. I just don't know how to be miserable or share negativity with people around me. (Please allow me to be drama, please ignore if you don't like it.) Everyone sees me as a smart and strong person and they can rely on me and I'm happy with that. I'm happy when people around me is happy. But why I'm too emotional so much now about Google and Amazon because, I realised, actually, I wanted to be accepted. I was thinking if I get the job, I'll make more money so that my mom will stop asking me to marry with the guy I don't know(in Thai culture, when a guy marry with a woman, a gloom has to pay money to a bride family), just accept who I am. I want my dad stop worrying about me and be proud of who I am. I want my brothers to have a better education, better than I had, be a better person than I am. And everybody just be happy. That's all I want in life. I just complain. And I know this hard time will pass as I always pass so many storms. Just this time, I expected myself too much so it hurt so much, and I couldn't figure out how to handle this drama emotional. time heals... One thing I know, to me, failure is just an event but not an identity. It happen, I acknowledge and experience that I'm sad, depressed, cry if it necessary. Then detach from it, put my shit together and move on. I can only imagine I will be a batter person than I was. I will try better with SoftLayer on upcoming interview soon. And if I fail again, it is totally fine because I already feel thankful for any opportunities I was given. Thank you and goodluck everyone!!! :)

Thank you for your kind message. I think my problem is I don't know how to ''share'' feeling with people around me. In my whole life I have been the only one person my family can rely on both mentally and physically. I only know to be stronger and never give up and I never show feeling with people around me. I just let go and focus on positive thing that I can make it happen.

yes, actually I always have very low confident about my English as it is my 3rd language. (1.Thai, 2. Japanese) I understood the conversation perfectly though. But the role I interviewed for was totally not match with my experience so I didn't know what to answer to their questions. And yes, I will keep practicing interview.