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How to image it?

I also had this when I was about six years old except I wasn’t in danger at that time. It was a “holy shit” experience. It has happened since. Voluntarily. Last one was at 19, which was involuntary, I thought I will lose my mind. Since then I try to reproduce it by listening to some people who I feel can help and meditating but no luck. Maybe it is not meant to be now.

Some people here are proper aholes.

I just want the best for them. Actually I would say you are the one preoccupied with the gender roles.

I will try being kind as much as possible though, thanks for the advice.

Thank you! It is hard the see who is right and who is not.

I remember that more than 10years ago, Ben&Jerry’s cost 5pounds.

How can I be a good role model to my sister? It is her that I worry about the most.

I mentioned in another comment that in two years she wants to go to Poland to study Operette. I told to my mother that this is on her. My sister doesn’t speak Polish even, she won’t have that financial support. I don’t know what to do. Do I continue like my father? He gave her some money(up to 100eur a month)for reading and good grades. I could do 50 easy. Do I try to have other hobbies and maybe something will peak her interest. I don’t know, I myself am hobbyless.

I earn more now than I would in Germany.

I tried reddit but my post was removed because - it involves someone underage or it is too personal. There are some not so active subs like rant that accepted my post and I got one reply which said that they are not my responsibily.

Yeah sometimes it is just abit too much for me. In my mind it can go all good to all bad.