It's wonderful that you've made progress on the puzzle you found yourself facing. But in reading your essay, the subtext that comes through more strongly than the medical dilemma is a sense of disorientation, loneliness, and anxiety. Even this comment hints at it in its opening disclaimer.
For all I know, you see family every weekend and have friends over for drinks and games every night, but the story suggests that your inner experience of navigating a deep personal struggle involved a lot of private worry, disappointment, and lack of practical culturally implicit skills like how to develop a relationship with a doctor.
Since you seem to have some momentum in self care at the moment, you might want to consider a deeper look at what's going on for you there. You might find consistent therapy helpful as you do so.
For all I know, you see family every weekend and have friends over for drinks and games every night, but the story suggests that your inner experience of navigating a deep personal struggle involved a lot of private worry, disappointment, and lack of practical culturally implicit skills like how to develop a relationship with a doctor.
Since you seem to have some momentum in self care at the moment, you might want to consider a deeper look at what's going on for you there. You might find consistent therapy helpful as you do so.