You're not lazy.
I've been in your situation (I'm 33, but working since I was 15, the last 3 years looked eerily similar to what you've described). I'm significantly better now.
Therapy, changing my lifestyle and focusing less on work helped. I wish I had done this years ago. I'm still struggling with this sometimes, but I also realised that I feel better than I could even think it was possible.
Another thing that really helped me was finding a job I didn't care much about, spending more time doing nothing.
If you're like me, you probably feel like you're already doing nothing, but at the same time feel compelled to fix that by trying to do more and blaming yourself for not caring/not being good enough/being on the verge of becoming unemployed/<insert your brain's favourite way of self-criticism here>.
Doing nothing is good. Then, with time, simple ideas might pop in to your head once in a while, but you won't feel pressured to implement them, you will just make something for fun. In my case it's building small toys (like https://sonnet.io/posts/reactive-hole/) or doodling, anything not too serious really.
You're not lazy. It's literally the opposite-your body is telling you how tired you are.
I'm not a therapist, but if you want to chat or just rant* I have coffee/office hours set up to meet people, exchange experiences, learn from them, or just talk about random stuff--it doesn't really matter.
https://sonnet.io/posts/hi
[*] Those 3-minute rant meetings usually end up being 2h long conversations, but they're really fun.
I've been in your situation (I'm 33, but working since I was 15, the last 3 years looked eerily similar to what you've described). I'm significantly better now.
Therapy, changing my lifestyle and focusing less on work helped. I wish I had done this years ago. I'm still struggling with this sometimes, but I also realised that I feel better than I could even think it was possible.
Another thing that really helped me was finding a job I didn't care much about, spending more time doing nothing.
If you're like me, you probably feel like you're already doing nothing, but at the same time feel compelled to fix that by trying to do more and blaming yourself for not caring/not being good enough/being on the verge of becoming unemployed/<insert your brain's favourite way of self-criticism here>.
Doing nothing is good. Then, with time, simple ideas might pop in to your head once in a while, but you won't feel pressured to implement them, you will just make something for fun. In my case it's building small toys (like https://sonnet.io/posts/reactive-hole/) or doodling, anything not too serious really.
You're not lazy. It's literally the opposite-your body is telling you how tired you are.
I'm not a therapist, but if you want to chat or just rant* I have coffee/office hours set up to meet people, exchange experiences, learn from them, or just talk about random stuff--it doesn't really matter.
https://sonnet.io/posts/hi
[*] Those 3-minute rant meetings usually end up being 2h long conversations, but they're really fun.