I don't felt the need to see a doctor about what I'm experiencing, so I'm not sure if what I have qualifies as depression. But over the past several months, it feels like my entire personality and being is a rug that has been pulled out from underneath me. I'm no longer the driven and interested person that I used to be. I struggle to sit down and work - my brain feels scattered and no matter how much I sleep and rest, I feel so tired that my body literally aches. The only thing I really feel is a subtle sadness, like a background hum that feels like it's dragging me down. It also feels like it's never going to go away.
So is that depression? I have no idea, but I hate the feeling and I pray that once this pandemic is over, the symptoms will fade.
So is that depression? I have no idea, but I hate the feeling and I pray that once this pandemic is over, the symptoms will fade.