You might consider seeing a psychologist or whatever in this niche to find out who you are.
Other option is to study about the topic
I would suggest you to watch on youtube Robert Sapolsky lectures human behavioral biology as well Jordan Peterson maps of meaning adding to that jim roth spechees these will give a chance to study about yourself
Other option is to study about the topic
I would suggest you to watch on youtube Robert Sapolsky lectures human behavioral biology as well Jordan Peterson maps of meaning adding to that jim roth spechees these will give a chance to study about yourself