Stop with those medications. Psychologists and doctors these days tend to fix everything by putting you under some generic label and give you some generic medication. Medication is a good fix if you have some inflammation in your elbow and you take antibiotics for a week or two, but taking medications for longer than that is just plain wrong. Usually it will only deal with the symptoms, while hiding the real problems.
I don't know you personally, but let me give you my general opinion about solving your problem:
- " I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago and since then have made peace with it" - Don't let other people tell you what you have, even if they have a PhD. What if this guy was wrong? Some doctor told me 10 years ago that I will never be able to walk properly, because knees don't heal. Guess what, it did heal. I run 10 Kilometers for fun every Friday.
- Start exercising. Go for some martial art if you can. Do it at least twice a week.
- Stop with the news. Any kind of news. Read a good long book instead.
- Meet some good friends, and do it often.
- Don't give up to yourself. Don't work at a boring non challenging job. It will rot your soul from the inside. Keep up with the challenging work. You don't have to go over your head, always aim just a bit higher than your comfort zone. If you feel things are too difficult for you at this point, ask your team to go easy for a while. No shame in doing that.
Life is beautiful. Do your best to enjoy your time here.
I don't know you personally, but let me give you my general opinion about solving your problem:
- " I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago and since then have made peace with it" - Don't let other people tell you what you have, even if they have a PhD. What if this guy was wrong? Some doctor told me 10 years ago that I will never be able to walk properly, because knees don't heal. Guess what, it did heal. I run 10 Kilometers for fun every Friday.
- Start exercising. Go for some martial art if you can. Do it at least twice a week.
- Stop with the news. Any kind of news. Read a good long book instead.
- Meet some good friends, and do it often.
- Don't give up to yourself. Don't work at a boring non challenging job. It will rot your soul from the inside. Keep up with the challenging work. You don't have to go over your head, always aim just a bit higher than your comfort zone. If you feel things are too difficult for you at this point, ask your team to go easy for a while. No shame in doing that.
Life is beautiful. Do your best to enjoy your time here.