kurage
Joined 12 years ago
Joined 12 years ago
The truth is, we only have so much time left on this earth, that it's impossible to understand everything that exists.. we can only try our best with the situations we're in and given.
Anyway, once I realized the importance of the present moment, it made it easier for me to do things I've always wanted to do, and neglected to do. I felt like my mind did a disk-defrag, completely nuked my old self, and started with a clean new slate to relearn things.
Psilocybin helped bring clarity, motivation in my life, love for nature, and helped purge out some negative emotions by crying.
Ayahuasca has been the most therapeutic; it allowed me to revisit very early childhood memories I've completely forgotten about, which later helped my interactions with my family and friends. It also showed me why I was born, which helped give me a sense of direction, purpose in life.
Forever grateful for psychedelics and the guides that help facilitate a safe space.
The shaman by him/herself won't do anything. Neither would the Ayahuasca on it's own. It's having the right combination of both (setting), and your intention (set) that leads to an amazing experience.
The funny thing is, the experience itself is not the most important thing.. it's what you do after the ceremony with your life, and how you change your lifestyle to make you happy.
Obviously, if the shaman isn't giving you the real tea, mixes stuff in, doesn't take care of you, and such, I'd call it a straight up scam.
Not only was I able to recover some of my traumatic memories when I was a toddler, it's revealed so many things about myself that I've repressed, like sexuality, and didn't know.. and taught me how the universe may work. It's given me a direction in life, and my attitude towards others have significantly improved compared to before the experiences.
Then one day, when I was about 23, I did LSD and cannabis together. My whole world came crashing down, and I realized that ADHD was a label that limited my true potential, and made me judgmental of "neurotypicals". After my trip, I realized that I lost about 75% of my visual-spatial ability (I felt out of it for a year or so as I missed having that ability), but I also felt more at peace, open-minded, and in the present moment. I also became a "doer", rather than a "thinker". I do not use any meds at all now; I meditate in the morning for at least 20 minutes, and try to run at least once a week.
With that said, I still like variety, and am a jack of all trades. Last time I did freelance, I loved doing marketing research, design, coding, programming and social media.
Well, that was definitely mistake #1; psychedelics require the right set & setting. That with the possibility of him not knowing he had a mental illness is probably what did it. Also, there is a possibility that he was given a different kind of mushrooms, like amanita.
Drugs, food, anything for that matter, when taken to excess can be damaging, like what happened with your friend.
Personal anecdote, which you've been relying on so far.. LSD helped my depression and allowed me to quit adderall and weed. With shrooms, my anxiety got better and I quit my fap/porn addiction. I will be going to Peru in 2 weeks to do Ayahuasca (DMT) to help me get over my childhood sexual trauma. You can't lump all drugs into one category; psychedelics might as well be called "medicine".
If I continue, I start seeing colors swirl around the 30min mark, reminding myself not to get attached to it. After 40 min, the cognitive changes are VERY noticeable when I stop. Food tastes great, colors are vivid, and I can even feel the individual water drops in the shower.. I liken it to cannabis effects without the racing thoughts.