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Check out the review articles in the “Nature Reviews” journals, like “Nature Reviews Genetics”. These articles are written by experts but designed for a non-specialist audience (with undergraduate science education).

On Facebook, if you go to 'Menu' > 'Feeds' > 'Friends' you will see a feed of only your contacts' activity and none of the suggested posts & random pages on the normal Feed

Collaborate with other people on your projects. You could do some of the initial work, and then hand it off to others to do the marketing and follow-up. You don’t have to do everything yourself.

Exposure therapy for PTSD, phobias, and other anxiety disorders has lots of evidence from clinical trials. It is based on animal studies of “fear extinction”. You often see good results after 10-12 hours of focused therapy sessions.

But for papers published recently you can email an author and they will send you a PDF.

ChatGPT often makes up facts. It outputs stuff that looks like it could have been written by a human, not stuff that is correct.

Don’t use ChatGPT for medical research.

You must be doing this all the time because even if you verbalize some stuff you cannot possibly verbalize everything that is happening in your mind.

Check out “childhood emotional neglect” and “complex posttraumatic stress disorder (CPTSD)”. There are lots of books, websites, and forums about this.

Your chronic feeling of emptiness and lack of joy indicate that you have turned off your emotions, maybe in early childhood, maybe to block out a traumatic experience or because your family ignored you and so emotions felt useless.

Look for a therapist who specializes in these issues. You will probably need to try out multiple therapists before you find one for you.

Sounds like you have a lot going for you. It is really common with these issues to have low self-esteem, to feel lots of shame, to feel hopelessly broken, etc, but other people probably do not see you like that.

US teacher unions are for teachers in elementary and high schools (teaching children). People teaching at universities typically do not have a union.

Lots of people have a high standard of living but still suffer from childhood abuse and neglect.

Reducing stigma helps research. It becomes easier to get institutional support, recruit study participants, collaborate with colleagues, obtain funding, etc.

There are reports in medical journals of people accidentally taking hundreds of doses of LSD, and they all were sober within 24 hours.