fatalness

So you just need to become more stupid I believe. After I have developed slightly high blood pressure I quit smoking and I've started to do 2-3 hours of extensive exercise every day (both weight lifting and aerobics) - my anxiety/depression level have dropped significantly.

I couldn't generate streams of vivid ideas anymore, but I'm much less fuzzy and kind-of "psychotic" I'd say.

I was great with words (In russian which is my native language) - I couldn't write so cool and fast anymore. I guess I'm less funny now.

But I'm more steady and confident. I'm dumber, but I'm much more happier.

Linear algebra by the David Poole's book "Linear algebra: A modern introducing" (not even learning seriously, just refreshing 'cause I am CS-graduate)