burned_out

I wish I had the answer. Currently I’m planning to talk to my direct manager. I don’t know exactly what to say, or suggest to him. I’m working on that now

Not really. Like I said in some other comments. I’m having trouble detaching. Even when I’m practicing playing my guitar it’s in the back of my head...

It would be a big change - we’d have to sell our home because we would not be able to pay the mortgage. My current salary is almost double that of any offer I was able to get. I’ve talked to many developers in the area and it’s basically the same thing, just for less money.

All that for what? Because I am bored or demotivated.

Those are all valid concerns. It is a risk I am not willing to take without her full support.

Makes sense. We have set up the on call schedule, but there are situations when I get called in outside the schedule. Less often than say a year ago, but it still happens.

I guess that is the core of the issue. I am never switched off of work, and it caught up with me. I am not sure is it just my personality.

Thanks. I wish I could focus on something like that. Whenever I start a new thing I feel like I’m wasting time, when deadlines are approaching. Makes me anxious even more. Paradoxically then I don’t do either which is worse I know.

I guess what I’m saying I can’t seem to detach from problems at work.

Nice project though :)

Please do expand on this.

What do you mean by professional services?

That is absolutely true.

There are some valid points there. Not sure if it is related to the issue. Maybe.

All on point. Changing jobs, scaling down is something I can’t seem to agree on with my SO.

> You may be generally unhappy with your career regardless of title or compensation. You’re allowed to feel that way! Not every “good job” is necessarily a good fit.

I think this may be the biggest factor, with other things mentioned adding to the issue

Attending meetings is valued here. Otherwise you risk being seen as disrespectful to the manager that invited you as a non-optional attendee.

But you may be on to something. The situation is pretty chaotic and I honestly don’t feel like I can help anyone, which is demotivating to me.

The organization has become too bureaucratic too political and I am not in the position to make changes, even if I knew what to change in these circumstances.

Not for me personally, but thanks for the suggestion.

Thanks, I’ll check it out.

At work, I’m just answering emails or handling incident requests or attending online meetings.

Outside work, nothing really. Mostly I fiddle with my guitar or ruminate about the next day.