I didnt realize how much I typed so I put it in pastebin. I've never commented here and your comment gave me hope that someone understands me (I'm sure there are a lot of people who do, its likely a miscommunication on my end) This is also an example of my writing when I'm not focused.. really tired right now but this is important so im half there so hopefully its half readable enough to give me maybe a half answer even though I want the full one I will accept any piece of information that makes me a little more closer to being successful in life)
tldr You made me realize stuff from your post and how do you live without flow and also this is more or less for me trying to figure what the hell my problem is and why I'm not good at a lot of aspects that make a successful person, also you don't have to read it because its probably an unrelated issue that sounds like mine but its worth mentioning just in case it is and I rarely find anyone that I can relate to with this sort of stuff so forgive me.. just trying to learn more about myself.
tldr You made me realize stuff from your post and how do you live without flow and also this is more or less for me trying to figure what the hell my problem is and why I'm not good at a lot of aspects that make a successful person, also you don't have to read it because its probably an unrelated issue that sounds like mine but its worth mentioning just in case it is and I rarely find anyone that I can relate to with this sort of stuff so forgive me.. just trying to learn more about myself.
http://pastebin.com/eBNFJaSH