My values don't even gravitate towards money. I realize how foolish it is to chase money.
Yet I feel very sad when I think about Mark Cuban just hopping in his private jet, gambling 10 million dollars away in Vegas, and then heading to New York to spend 10k on a sushi dinner without thinking twice.
I know I will never have that.
I have saved over a million dollars and I make over 60k per year in passive income (actually made 160k so far this year), but I worked for 8 years for that money. And I went to school for 4 years in order to get that job.
At that rate, I will never know what it is to be rich. I am an INFP on the Meyers-Briggs personality test. I guess we aren't supposed to make the best entrepreneurs, but I can't imagine myself doing anything else than running my own enterprise. Maybe I just like the thought of it, but maybe I don't have what it takes to make it happen.
Everyone is out for themselves nowadays. I have reached out to so many people. So many.
I have had a year to think my way out of this, but I keep going in circles. I think I should just shut up and get a job and try to be normal.
I mean, I don't think I have the intestinal fortitude to do that, but I guess maybe I should.
I really see myself crashing and burning, becoming homeless or committing suicide. This world seems like a lie, and I will never get what I want. That is only for people who aren't me.
I am pretty sure all this is true and I won't pull out of it. I wish so bad it wasn't true. I really want to live a happy life. I just don't think I will. I don't think I will ever be rich, and it really bothers me.
And I know that none of the comments are going to get me out of my situation, but I post this in hopes that I am wrong and cynical. But I have seen it too many times where nothing changes, things just stay the same.
I know I will never have that.
I have saved over a million dollars and I make over 60k per year in passive income (actually made 160k so far this year), but I worked for 8 years for that money. And I went to school for 4 years in order to get that job.
At that rate, I will never know what it is to be rich. I am an INFP on the Meyers-Briggs personality test. I guess we aren't supposed to make the best entrepreneurs, but I can't imagine myself doing anything else than running my own enterprise. Maybe I just like the thought of it, but maybe I don't have what it takes to make it happen.
Everyone is out for themselves nowadays. I have reached out to so many people. So many.
I have had a year to think my way out of this, but I keep going in circles. I think I should just shut up and get a job and try to be normal. I mean, I don't think I have the intestinal fortitude to do that, but I guess maybe I should.
I really see myself crashing and burning, becoming homeless or committing suicide. This world seems like a lie, and I will never get what I want. That is only for people who aren't me.
I am pretty sure all this is true and I won't pull out of it. I wish so bad it wasn't true. I really want to live a happy life. I just don't think I will. I don't think I will ever be rich, and it really bothers me.
And I know that none of the comments are going to get me out of my situation, but I post this in hopes that I am wrong and cynical. But I have seen it too many times where nothing changes, things just stay the same.