Comment by ckeith

I am trying, I am making progress. Looking back is like looking down and I can't do that. But this pain comes and goes and as it does my mood changes. I am coping, hoping for the better. I am now 400 miles away from family. My whole life changed when I moved down here. I don't know if I can go see family without losing my job as I found all this out during my week of vacation off from work and now cannot take any more without scheduling it. I need to get out of here, I hope my boss understands it. Maybe I can work remotely. I hate KY now, it has been nothing but a curse. Once we moved down here she met men. That is where it went downhill because all of a sudden I was stomped on by this hatred. Hatred that made no sense until I found out that she cheated on me when she left her facebook open. Yes I was curious. Was I wrong? No... Did I know her password? No... Once i found out it hit, all she could care about was my car keys. What kind of person is this? Is Monogamy real? I doubt it. Wish it was. If I talked to a professional, I would be labeled and I don't want to do that. I may need it though the more and more I think about it. Of course I could make half of the money developing software up in Ohio, but that is a choice I am currently considering. I have no friends down here, no close friends since she came into my life. It's just a black hole, no where to go.