there is a lot more of me getting to choose what it is i end up doing each day. i find fun in doing those things now pretty regularly. cracking a tough problem can feel as good as jumping out of a plane did. that is to say, my brain is still not a great judge of how relatively cool something is, because even something like scuba diving or fast sports were wildly cool the first time and then the second time it was like "this again?".
i feel much safer though knowing that now when i sometimes get a little bit of the itch, i'll think about it for a few seconds and go "eh, maybe later," and return to trying to make a thing, or play some music, or why is that stupid thing still broken oh its because i broke it.
i feel much safer though knowing that now when i sometimes get a little bit of the itch, i'll think about it for a few seconds and go "eh, maybe later," and return to trying to make a thing, or play some music, or why is that stupid thing still broken oh its because i broke it.