The only bad guys here are those who exploit issues like this for unethical reasons.
You clearly aren't that person.
Regarding your perceived mistake, we all make them.
Please forgive yourself and understand that the negative feelings and thoughts you are having are a mark of decency but do not represent reality, and if they persist please seek help to get you back on track.
As an aside, to you and those like you who take on the task of fighting and protecting against these attacks with often nothing to gain except hurt like this:
You clearly aren't that person.
Regarding your perceived mistake, we all make them.
Please forgive yourself and understand that the negative feelings and thoughts you are having are a mark of decency but do not represent reality, and if they persist please seek help to get you back on track.
As an aside, to you and those like you who take on the task of fighting and protecting against these attacks with often nothing to gain except hurt like this:
Thank you for your service.