This is some serious touch-grass territory you're treading in. Might I introduce you to the Bottomless Pit of Suffering[1] thought experiment of utilitarianism? Because it's incredibly relevant to the arguments you're presenting.
Disclaimer: I don't generally hold Silicon Valley rationalists in high regard, but this particular piece of writing has always stuck with me quite deeply, as someone who used to be superficially interested in utilitarianism.
[1] https://readscottalexander.com/posts/ssc-bottomless-pits-of-...
Disclaimer: I don't generally hold Silicon Valley rationalists in high regard, but this particular piece of writing has always stuck with me quite deeply, as someone who used to be superficially interested in utilitarianism.