I had some bullshit virus that the kid bought home about six months ago, and it royally fucked me up - since, I have been persistently lightheaded, get tired walking up a flight of stairs, and constantly feel like I need to sleep - but the cruellest thing is that I can’t. Since I had whatever, I haven’t been able to sleep more than 2-3 hours per day - I fall asleep, snooze groggily for ten minutes, wake up, repeat. It’s getting to the point that I’m not even bothering to try, any more, as it’s just a waste of time and energy. I find myself not having the energy to
eat - it’s like trying to ram cardboard down my throat. I’ll cook for the family and by the time I’m done, sticking food in my mouth seems impossible. I’ve lost about 20% of my body mass since. I push too hard and I faint, or at least have to drop to the floor as the tunnel vision sets in lest I batter myself when I drop like a broken marionete - I’ve demolished a coffee table and a wardrobe, somewhat painfully.
Add to that that I have a toddler and live off grid and absolutely cannot get a break, and that my wife believes I am being a ridiculous hypochondriac, and… it’s hard.
I just have to believe it will get better at some point. Doctors reliably tell me there’s nothing wrong, and offer me anxiety medication. I’m not anxious - I’m just tired.
Add to that that I have a toddler and live off grid and absolutely cannot get a break, and that my wife believes I am being a ridiculous hypochondriac, and… it’s hard.
I just have to believe it will get better at some point. Doctors reliably tell me there’s nothing wrong, and offer me anxiety medication. I’m not anxious - I’m just tired.