I think the right word in my case would be 'cursed'. There is mystery and magic behind the scenes but it's not positive.
Everything positive in my world is stuff that I can see, explain and influence to some extent. Everything bad is the stuff I can't fully understand; the things that I have little visibility and no control over; yet those exert a very strong force over my reality.
Things like government, monetary policy, globalization, the media, cultural changes. I don't have much visibility or control over those but they all have a huge negative impact on my world.
Everything bad that happened so me, I cannot trace back to a specific thing I did. I consistently sacrificed the present for the future, optimized for career, yet the invisible hand keeps making things worse somehow.
I can't help but wonder what happened to the people who always lived for the present. If my future is looking so bleak, what about most people who didn't sacrifice anything for the future? Victims of the opioid crisis? Or maybe everything has been flipped on its head? Maybe the future belongs to those who YOLO everything?
Everything positive in my world is stuff that I can see, explain and influence to some extent. Everything bad is the stuff I can't fully understand; the things that I have little visibility and no control over; yet those exert a very strong force over my reality.
Things like government, monetary policy, globalization, the media, cultural changes. I don't have much visibility or control over those but they all have a huge negative impact on my world.
Everything bad that happened so me, I cannot trace back to a specific thing I did. I consistently sacrificed the present for the future, optimized for career, yet the invisible hand keeps making things worse somehow.
I can't help but wonder what happened to the people who always lived for the present. If my future is looking so bleak, what about most people who didn't sacrifice anything for the future? Victims of the opioid crisis? Or maybe everything has been flipped on its head? Maybe the future belongs to those who YOLO everything?