Have you considered professional therapy from a licensed professional (whatever that might be in your region)? Not because that's the only way to improve your life, but because you specifically mentioned a "deficiency in memory", relationships, and emotional regulation – all traditional fields for such therapists to work in, and they often partner with psychologists who can diagnose underlying medical conditions and prescribe medication if necessary.
There might be some combination of drugs and therapies that could help some or all of those conditions. It doesn't work for everyone, but if you have never tried the mainstream approach, it might be worth a shot.
If you can start to see small improvements in some of those areas, then you can build other practices on top of them and keep improving those skills.
There are also many alternative modalities (doctors of naturopathic medicine, for example) with different approaches, if you prefer. You can try multiple providers/modalities until you find one that works for you, if you can afford it.
Best of luck to you! 40 here, and my life's also a mess, but I have no neurological/biological excuses lol, just my own personal failures. Hopefully you'll find some helpful approaches once you start looking.
There might be some combination of drugs and therapies that could help some or all of those conditions. It doesn't work for everyone, but if you have never tried the mainstream approach, it might be worth a shot.
If you can start to see small improvements in some of those areas, then you can build other practices on top of them and keep improving those skills.
There are also many alternative modalities (doctors of naturopathic medicine, for example) with different approaches, if you prefer. You can try multiple providers/modalities until you find one that works for you, if you can afford it.
Best of luck to you! 40 here, and my life's also a mess, but I have no neurological/biological excuses lol, just my own personal failures. Hopefully you'll find some helpful approaches once you start looking.