It sounds like, you need a break from all this. Just Restart yourself and you'll see the change.
and also don't expect things
I don't even have a CS degree, I'm just a self-taught but then I kept trying and caught a break with an internship, it paid me more than $600 a month and I didn't even ask for it, they offered it generously.
and also don't expect things
I don't even have a CS degree, I'm just a self-taught but then I kept trying and caught a break with an internship, it paid me more than $600 a month and I didn't even ask for it, they offered it generously.