I received some advice early in my career, from a staff engineer, along the lines of "Don't worry about remembering that which you've previously been tested on." It has stuck with me, and made me feel a lot better about the way I tackle my work as a software engineer; deliberately, with research, and consideration.
Having Autism, I get quite overwhelmed when I'm talking with someone I don't know, especially if they're judging or evaluating me. It's really affecting my progress in interviews, and while I'm getting to the first stages, I'm stumbling somewhere.
When I join the call, my wall is up and I'm masking hard; it's unavoidable, but I remain somewhat-authentic. I try my best to be charming, and for the most part, I think I'm quite successful, with most of my feedback being "great guy, asked good questions"
However, when it comes to being technical and self-promotion, I'm so bad that I may as well be a carpenter who had decided on a late-in-life career change, knowing nothing about tech. Even if I write down my achievements, I feel gross about fluffing it up, instead focusing on outcomes and facts. I have awards, accolades, and recommendations from my peers, but for some reason I can't land a job, or even get close.
Any advice?
Having Autism, I get quite overwhelmed when I'm talking with someone I don't know, especially if they're judging or evaluating me. It's really affecting my progress in interviews, and while I'm getting to the first stages, I'm stumbling somewhere.
When I join the call, my wall is up and I'm masking hard; it's unavoidable, but I remain somewhat-authentic. I try my best to be charming, and for the most part, I think I'm quite successful, with most of my feedback being "great guy, asked good questions"
However, when it comes to being technical and self-promotion, I'm so bad that I may as well be a carpenter who had decided on a late-in-life career change, knowing nothing about tech. Even if I write down my achievements, I feel gross about fluffing it up, instead focusing on outcomes and facts. I have awards, accolades, and recommendations from my peers, but for some reason I can't land a job, or even get close.
Any advice?