there is a little boy inside me who wants to watch all six lectures right away. but now with two kids and constant demand from work, I have gotten used to consuming education as 2 minute physics shorts on YouTube.
the issue is much deeper than the format of media. it's a sense inside me that I'm "wasting time" not "productive" (related but not the same as not remunerated). I feel I* don't have permission* to just enjoy it ... I can give some reasons, like if I go for a bike ride with the kids it gets me and them exercise and my wife some respite, but sit and listen is just passive consumption that will never be productive... I wish I was free of this sense of guilt
the issue is much deeper than the format of media. it's a sense inside me that I'm "wasting time" not "productive" (related but not the same as not remunerated). I feel I* don't have permission* to just enjoy it ... I can give some reasons, like if I go for a bike ride with the kids it gets me and them exercise and my wife some respite, but sit and listen is just passive consumption that will never be productive... I wish I was free of this sense of guilt