I’ve learned about multiple self-improvement techniques and failed to implement all.
I don’t know why I’ve failed but I have a pet theory: I feel like a failure. I feel that I have capabilities that far exceed my current output - not just in work, but love, friendship, etc. The idea of changing that around (via self-improvement techniques) is incredibly appealing. Thus, I read about self-improvement as a way of escapism. Reading new techniques allows me to think that _this time_ I’m going to turn it around and live a life I’m proud of. But, ultimately, it’s not about reading. It’s about doing. But I can’t do because I have no self-esteem, I’m scared, I’m depressed, and I feel like I’m pretending to be an adult when really I don’t know what’s happening and I’m pathetic.
I don’t know why I’ve failed but I have a pet theory: I feel like a failure. I feel that I have capabilities that far exceed my current output - not just in work, but love, friendship, etc. The idea of changing that around (via self-improvement techniques) is incredibly appealing. Thus, I read about self-improvement as a way of escapism. Reading new techniques allows me to think that _this time_ I’m going to turn it around and live a life I’m proud of. But, ultimately, it’s not about reading. It’s about doing. But I can’t do because I have no self-esteem, I’m scared, I’m depressed, and I feel like I’m pretending to be an adult when really I don’t know what’s happening and I’m pathetic.