I can't focus on things unless i've a very strong interest in it. However, it used to be I was curious about many things so it would work out. For example, I took a break from schooling when I was 11-12 and I was able to master math, science, and coding. I'd read an entire book in one go, spend days on one math problem, Debug code for 5+ days.
But I essentially had no internet access, then I got the internet and came competitive gaming, seeking public reward came to be the norm for me, yahoo answers, then youtube, then multiple tabs in chrome... now i can't even watch videos longer than 2 minutes, i cant read comments longer than 2 sentences, i actually hate talking in full sentences.. instead just feel inclined to use acronyms: lol, wdu?, sus, ngl, g, cap, gl... I find myself trying to come up with funny comments for reddit all day (sad actually), obsessively updating news sites for no reason...I have 80+ tabs open any time, (all todo readings)
I struggle to code for day job.
Obviously social media is a big culprit, my question is something wrong with me in addition to that? I still can focus on things that I've innate interest in (got fascinated with video editing and taught myself after effects after obsessively learning from all resources)
I found writing physically on a notebook kinda helped me, also going on long drives 4+ hours and reading a book (one time i knew i was gonna go so found a book i could read and didn't wanna use mobile data, ended up reading half the book and came back home and read the rest... huge accomplishment for me to read the whole book)
on good sleep days im better
now that i think about it i always had this side to me, rewards didn't motivate me, punishment didn't matter. good grades, more money, reputation... led to some temporary motivation, only thing that motivated me was if it was intellectually interesting if not i knew i should do it but just couldn't bring inner me to accept the compromise.
so what do you do, or i should do?
I understand none of the comments are medical advice
But I essentially had no internet access, then I got the internet and came competitive gaming, seeking public reward came to be the norm for me, yahoo answers, then youtube, then multiple tabs in chrome... now i can't even watch videos longer than 2 minutes, i cant read comments longer than 2 sentences, i actually hate talking in full sentences.. instead just feel inclined to use acronyms: lol, wdu?, sus, ngl, g, cap, gl... I find myself trying to come up with funny comments for reddit all day (sad actually), obsessively updating news sites for no reason...I have 80+ tabs open any time, (all todo readings)
I struggle to code for day job.
Obviously social media is a big culprit, my question is something wrong with me in addition to that? I still can focus on things that I've innate interest in (got fascinated with video editing and taught myself after effects after obsessively learning from all resources)
I found writing physically on a notebook kinda helped me, also going on long drives 4+ hours and reading a book (one time i knew i was gonna go so found a book i could read and didn't wanna use mobile data, ended up reading half the book and came back home and read the rest... huge accomplishment for me to read the whole book)
on good sleep days im better
now that i think about it i always had this side to me, rewards didn't motivate me, punishment didn't matter. good grades, more money, reputation... led to some temporary motivation, only thing that motivated me was if it was intellectually interesting if not i knew i should do it but just couldn't bring inner me to accept the compromise.
so what do you do, or i should do?
I understand none of the comments are medical advice