Hi, all. Thanks for your responses. I'll reply to some of them individually, but I'll address some common themes here.
First, some extra information that I had forgotten to include earlier:
- I don't consume weed daily. Just once a week. (Granted, a lot of it.) Also, I don't smoke it, I use edibles.
- I am medicated for ADHD and anxiety. I currently take Ritalin and Zoloft.
- I do not go out of my way to irresponsibly combine these medications with anything (e.g. I don't grind it up and snort it). It's possible that having this combination in my body has worked against me in ways that went over my head.
- I don't drink or smoke.
- I am currently in a PIP at work. The PIP finishes at the end of this week, so it's entirely possible I'll be canned anyway. (Not that I'll take it lying down, but that's a separate Ask HN.)
- I'm single.
- I don't live alone. I live with my parents and brother. I've shown my parents this thread, and their advice is largely consistent with what we've read here.
- My current job is the first I've had since grad school (I finished with a Master's in computer science in December of 2018).
- Since graduation I've been working on my game full-time, at least until I started my current job.
- I have been eating more lately. I could stand to drop 15 pounds or so.
Now, here's what I'm gonna do in the near future:
- Abstain from marijuana, at least for the month of August. What I do after then will depend on how my mood changes.
- Coincidentally, this Thursday I'm seeing my doctor about adjusting my prescription. I might even switch to something else. (This was planned even before my thread this morning.)
- My employer's health benefits include a subscription to Talkspace, so I'll give that a try.
- I'm going to exercise more. I bought Ring Fit Adventure a few weeks ago, but now I'll integrate it into my morning routine more stringently. I've already got a week-long streak.
I'm still open to other ideas, though.
Separating my creative output (not necessarily from my day job) from my sense of self-worth will probably be necessary as well, although I don't have a plan for actually doing so.
First, some extra information that I had forgotten to include earlier:
- I don't consume weed daily. Just once a week. (Granted, a lot of it.) Also, I don't smoke it, I use edibles.
- I am medicated for ADHD and anxiety. I currently take Ritalin and Zoloft.
- I do not go out of my way to irresponsibly combine these medications with anything (e.g. I don't grind it up and snort it). It's possible that having this combination in my body has worked against me in ways that went over my head.
- I don't drink or smoke.
- I am currently in a PIP at work. The PIP finishes at the end of this week, so it's entirely possible I'll be canned anyway. (Not that I'll take it lying down, but that's a separate Ask HN.)
- I'm single.
- I don't live alone. I live with my parents and brother. I've shown my parents this thread, and their advice is largely consistent with what we've read here.
- My current job is the first I've had since grad school (I finished with a Master's in computer science in December of 2018).
- Since graduation I've been working on my game full-time, at least until I started my current job.
- I have been eating more lately. I could stand to drop 15 pounds or so.
Now, here's what I'm gonna do in the near future:
- Abstain from marijuana, at least for the month of August. What I do after then will depend on how my mood changes.
- Coincidentally, this Thursday I'm seeing my doctor about adjusting my prescription. I might even switch to something else. (This was planned even before my thread this morning.)
- My employer's health benefits include a subscription to Talkspace, so I'll give that a try.
- I'm going to exercise more. I bought Ring Fit Adventure a few weeks ago, but now I'll integrate it into my morning routine more stringently. I've already got a week-long streak.
I'm still open to other ideas, though.
Separating my creative output (not necessarily from my day job) from my sense of self-worth will probably be necessary as well, although I don't have a plan for actually doing so.