So I'm in my early 30 and completely unsure where should I go next. I'm undiagnosed schizophrenic in remission and here's my story.
In my early 20s I founded a startup, got it on rails with traction, revenue and investors, and I was fired from it.
Around time of firing I started developing schizophrenia, still undiagnosed because I never went to psychiatrists. I broke all my contacts within a year, locked myself in, broke up with my significant one and switched to a social recluse lifestyle.
I started tinkering with crypto around that time and made some money, so I don't really have to work a lot of time if I keep my lifestyle.
I kept my programming skills up do date, spent a lot of time with AI projects, but I was unable to find team-mates to work on these projects. Most of these projects I was involved with were solo efforts.
Eventually decease progressed to a point where I had no real life, locked in my apartment tinkering with AI and crypto, Terry Davis style. My schizophrenia symptoms were getting even worse to a point I had no real-world contacts except my parents.
Around 2019 my father died and my mental state gotten even worse. I landed in prison for 2 years for attacking a police officer.
It has been 6 months after the prison, I now mostly involved with AI RL, Rust and Substrate projects, but I'm afraid I've completely lost a direction in life, with 0 peers still. I figured out I might just find a normal programming job, but so far my resume with 8 years of non-working gap keeps alienating employers. I completely unsure where should I go next. I have no social life.
Are there other misguided people like me?
In my early 20s I founded a startup, got it on rails with traction, revenue and investors, and I was fired from it.
Around time of firing I started developing schizophrenia, still undiagnosed because I never went to psychiatrists. I broke all my contacts within a year, locked myself in, broke up with my significant one and switched to a social recluse lifestyle.
I started tinkering with crypto around that time and made some money, so I don't really have to work a lot of time if I keep my lifestyle.
I kept my programming skills up do date, spent a lot of time with AI projects, but I was unable to find team-mates to work on these projects. Most of these projects I was involved with were solo efforts.
Eventually decease progressed to a point where I had no real life, locked in my apartment tinkering with AI and crypto, Terry Davis style. My schizophrenia symptoms were getting even worse to a point I had no real-world contacts except my parents.
Around 2019 my father died and my mental state gotten even worse. I landed in prison for 2 years for attacking a police officer.
It has been 6 months after the prison, I now mostly involved with AI RL, Rust and Substrate projects, but I'm afraid I've completely lost a direction in life, with 0 peers still. I figured out I might just find a normal programming job, but so far my resume with 8 years of non-working gap keeps alienating employers. I completely unsure where should I go next. I have no social life.
Are there other misguided people like me?