I think the most important thing for you to do now, is to get rid of the depressed and suicide thoughts. It sure helps to talk to people about it.
I'm rather messed up as well, as I gave up several well paying jobs to pursue my own startup dreams which eventually failed and I went the freelancing route which didn't work out too.
Speaking to people about my situation lifted my mood considerably and I urge that you do the same too.
Sort out those emotional issues first, and slowly plan to get your career back on track. Suicide won't solve anything.
I think the most important thing for you to do now, is to get rid of the depressed and suicide thoughts. It sure helps to talk to people about it.
I'm rather messed up as well, as I gave up several well paying jobs to pursue my own startup dreams which eventually failed and I went the freelancing route which didn't work out too.
Speaking to people about my situation lifted my mood considerably and I urge that you do the same too.
Sort out those emotional issues first, and slowly plan to get your career back on track. Suicide won't solve anything.
Get better soon dude.