> I could try to focus on my hobbies, but you realize very quickly that to get good at anything, you need hundreds/thousands of hours.
The point of hobbies is not "getting good at them". It's enjoying them for their own sake. Otherwise they turn into ... work.
> I'm just a blip in the universe and when I'm gone it will be unchanged, the same as if I had never existed.
Yes. The Universe doesn't expect or have any special plans for you.
But hey, that is not that bad. Consider the opposite. The Whole universe having a plan for you. The whole infinite Cosmos. Just thinking about you and having a plan for you.
I don't know about you. But it would give me a panic attack.
It's ok that the Universe doesn't have a plan for you. This frees you to assign your life whatever meaning you want - and to change it at any point! You can also feel gratified about fulfilling your self-assigned potential or feel extremely disapointed if you did not. Or, change them again. Some hold that the secret to happiness is having the right expectations about oneself.
> And now what?
Therapy worked for me.
The point of hobbies is not "getting good at them". It's enjoying them for their own sake. Otherwise they turn into ... work.
> I'm just a blip in the universe and when I'm gone it will be unchanged, the same as if I had never existed.
Yes. The Universe doesn't expect or have any special plans for you.
But hey, that is not that bad. Consider the opposite. The Whole universe having a plan for you. The whole infinite Cosmos. Just thinking about you and having a plan for you.
I don't know about you. But it would give me a panic attack.
It's ok that the Universe doesn't have a plan for you. This frees you to assign your life whatever meaning you want - and to change it at any point! You can also feel gratified about fulfilling your self-assigned potential or feel extremely disapointed if you did not. Or, change them again. Some hold that the secret to happiness is having the right expectations about oneself.
> And now what?
Therapy worked for me.