> I was subjected to serious physical abuse by my peers, as well as serious verbal bullying/psychological abuse.
Same, we all were, my first school was a special needs school and kids were having all kinds of mental health issues.
> I entered high school as a broken child with cemented learned helplessness. Never the same.
I had the luck to be transfered to a normal elementary school after they tested me thoroughly at age 10. I was a wounded kid, the teacher at that school patched me up.
> Trapped in an unwanted life.
I feel that we all have this to some extent. In all cases, I've noticed that a stoic mindset (and ok sleep combined with ok food) is the only thing that helps.
> I beg of God to forgive me and grant me peace in the afterlife, whether I am able to complete suicide now or later.
I've noticed suicidal ideation comes and goes. Because of that, it'd be a mistake to ever give in IMO. With that said, it seems you need help but I am in Europe. So I am not sure how to give it.
Ask HN: Assuming bubblecheck lives in the US can someone from the US (or a group from the US) help bubblecheck?
Feel free to email me, if you want someone to talk to.
Same, we all were, my first school was a special needs school and kids were having all kinds of mental health issues.
> I entered high school as a broken child with cemented learned helplessness. Never the same.
I had the luck to be transfered to a normal elementary school after they tested me thoroughly at age 10. I was a wounded kid, the teacher at that school patched me up.
> Trapped in an unwanted life.
I feel that we all have this to some extent. In all cases, I've noticed that a stoic mindset (and ok sleep combined with ok food) is the only thing that helps.
> I beg of God to forgive me and grant me peace in the afterlife, whether I am able to complete suicide now or later.
I've noticed suicidal ideation comes and goes. Because of that, it'd be a mistake to ever give in IMO. With that said, it seems you need help but I am in Europe. So I am not sure how to give it.
Ask HN: Assuming bubblecheck lives in the US can someone from the US (or a group from the US) help bubblecheck?
Feel free to email me, if you want someone to talk to.