It sounds like you have an anxiety disorder. I do too! It's not a simple fix, but I've gotten huge value from therapy for my anxiety. CBT gave me fast and cheap results that really helped. Psychotherapy has given me a more long term solution, but CBT gave me a lot of relief in just weeks.
I don't want to push drugs, and you definitely need to talk to your doctor, but I take a beta blocker in situations like yours. The heart pounding, overwhelming terror just melts away and I become (more or less) my normal self. Just knowing that I CAN take a beta blocker (and get symptom relief) often means I don't need to take it in the first place.
Drugs or not, too much anxiety is a real condition and professional treatment vastly improved both my professional and personal life.
I don't want to push drugs, and you definitely need to talk to your doctor, but I take a beta blocker in situations like yours. The heart pounding, overwhelming terror just melts away and I become (more or less) my normal self. Just knowing that I CAN take a beta blocker (and get symptom relief) often means I don't need to take it in the first place.
Drugs or not, too much anxiety is a real condition and professional treatment vastly improved both my professional and personal life.