I'm happy to finally read a comment that say this isn't a good or normal thing. I was starting to feel a bit of despair.
I don't think I've done that much more that you seems to do but I've certainly seen a lot of people do it and it's always been pissing me off. I've always wondered how the world even works when I consider how much I've seen people do that at every level and at every kind of job.
Dear original post author, you really need to start doing something that you enjoy or that motivates you.
You can also try to structure your life in a way that allows you to not work when you don't feel like you can or will be efficient. This is one of the very reason I'm freelancing: I work when I want/can, and do not pretend the rest of the time. But when I'm working, I'm trying to stay as close as possible to 100%. I charge a premium rate for those very focused session, and do not pretend the rest of the time. There are times when I work a lot, a d times when I don't accept new projects because I need time off (usually 4 months a year)
I'm really wondering how healthy is, psychologically, all this pretending.
Anyway, I don't think you're alone in your situation but I don't think it's a good thing either
Dear original post author, you really need to start doing something that you enjoy or that motivates you. You can also try to structure your life in a way that allows you to not work when you don't feel like you can or will be efficient. This is one of the very reason I'm freelancing: I work when I want/can, and do not pretend the rest of the time. But when I'm working, I'm trying to stay as close as possible to 100%. I charge a premium rate for those very focused session, and do not pretend the rest of the time. There are times when I work a lot, a d times when I don't accept new projects because I need time off (usually 4 months a year)
I'm really wondering how healthy is, psychologically, all this pretending.
Anyway, I don't think you're alone in your situation but I don't think it's a good thing either