Brain injuries are horrible. While I don’t have a physical injury, I had an absolutely devastating psychotic break in 2018 that destroyed my entire sense of self. The connections to my memories prior to the break are extremely disconnected and haven’t recovered much. I have memories of an entire childhood I only lived in my head.
I had to learn who I was again. I’m not the same person. I don’t even know the person I was before.
Before the break, I used to run table-top rpgs. I found I could no longer run them. The mental capacity just wasn’t there.
I still can’t work full time consistently. I average two days off per month without notice. Fortunately, my current employer is happy to work with me. I am beyond thankful none of my technical skills or abilities have been significantly impacted. They come from parts of my brain that weren’t damaged.
I’m slowly recovering but the pandemic and medications for bipolar aren’t helping.
But I am recovering. It’s three years later and I’m just barely managing to run an online game for some friends every two weeks. Maybe in a few years, it would be so hard.
I had to learn who I was again. I’m not the same person. I don’t even know the person I was before.
Before the break, I used to run table-top rpgs. I found I could no longer run them. The mental capacity just wasn’t there.
I still can’t work full time consistently. I average two days off per month without notice. Fortunately, my current employer is happy to work with me. I am beyond thankful none of my technical skills or abilities have been significantly impacted. They come from parts of my brain that weren’t damaged.
I’m slowly recovering but the pandemic and medications for bipolar aren’t helping.
But I am recovering. It’s three years later and I’m just barely managing to run an online game for some friends every two weeks. Maybe in a few years, it would be so hard.