Psilocybin's effect can be amazing, but there were moments when I took truffles in Amsterdam that almost made me commit suicide. The sane part -- whatever was left of it -- recognized it and found an immediate way to stop it. So what actually happened is that I locked myself up in an empty room and cried (I couldn't harm myself there, because I didn't know how to get out until I sobered up a bit).
After one hour of crying I started noticing the magical effects of "we're all connected" etc. So after the bad part of my trip, the amazing things came. I don't mind that I cried, but I do mind that I was acting on a suicidal tendency that I never experienced sober.
I think I overdosed on it, being quite an inexperienced user. Because the first time I took half a dose, that was an amazing experience and it allowed me to reconnect to true child-like wonder (measured in units of whatever the smart shops in Amsterdam sell).
N = 1, I know.
All I'm saying is: be careful, have a trip sitter and a good set and setting. Don't go all out simply because you see a few positive papers.
After one hour of crying I started noticing the magical effects of "we're all connected" etc. So after the bad part of my trip, the amazing things came. I don't mind that I cried, but I do mind that I was acting on a suicidal tendency that I never experienced sober.
I think I overdosed on it, being quite an inexperienced user. Because the first time I took half a dose, that was an amazing experience and it allowed me to reconnect to true child-like wonder (measured in units of whatever the smart shops in Amsterdam sell).
N = 1, I know.
All I'm saying is: be careful, have a trip sitter and a good set and setting. Don't go all out simply because you see a few positive papers.