I am currently employed at a small web dev agency and it's killing me.
There is no focus on quality of work just an obsession with older technologies and a lack of any desire to better understand the tools the developers are forced to work with.
The owner of the organization is more interested with being a sales person and has no concern for the technical ramifications of their sloppy "yes man" dealmaking approach. It has financially cost the company money, driven away all our senior developers / architects. Management responded by taking a magnifying glass to all the time spent by developers... while conveniently ignoring their own role in the failures.
My problem is that the day to day grind keeps me in a negative mental state. It's impossible to get the stink of desperation off and causes me to interview very poorly. I am not doing technical work up to the level I am capable of and feel rusty / out of practice with whatever opportunity I am reaching for.
Depression causes things I used to enjoy to feel like a chore... I literally cannot will myself to do things that I was intensely driven to do months ago. Being forced to return daily to this negative mental space prevents me from effectively being the creative, positive person I know I can be and that I need to be to be offered a new job.
I am currently in therapy and have been for the past 6 months or so. It is helping but there is no medication, therapy or treatment for a bad job... you just have to get up and move on.
How do you stay motivated to work on portfolio pieces when your job makes you hate what you used to enjoy?
How do you talk about the work you have done for the past 1+yrs when all that comes to mind is how inept and terrible the people you work for have been?
I have been abused and neglected for so long that I'm unable to let go of my victim complex. Please help.
If you need a remote web developer with 10+yrs of PHP / Node experience please DM me
There is no focus on quality of work just an obsession with older technologies and a lack of any desire to better understand the tools the developers are forced to work with.
The owner of the organization is more interested with being a sales person and has no concern for the technical ramifications of their sloppy "yes man" dealmaking approach. It has financially cost the company money, driven away all our senior developers / architects. Management responded by taking a magnifying glass to all the time spent by developers... while conveniently ignoring their own role in the failures.
My problem is that the day to day grind keeps me in a negative mental state. It's impossible to get the stink of desperation off and causes me to interview very poorly. I am not doing technical work up to the level I am capable of and feel rusty / out of practice with whatever opportunity I am reaching for.
Depression causes things I used to enjoy to feel like a chore... I literally cannot will myself to do things that I was intensely driven to do months ago. Being forced to return daily to this negative mental space prevents me from effectively being the creative, positive person I know I can be and that I need to be to be offered a new job.
I am currently in therapy and have been for the past 6 months or so. It is helping but there is no medication, therapy or treatment for a bad job... you just have to get up and move on.
How do you stay motivated to work on portfolio pieces when your job makes you hate what you used to enjoy?
How do you talk about the work you have done for the past 1+yrs when all that comes to mind is how inept and terrible the people you work for have been?
I have been abused and neglected for so long that I'm unable to let go of my victim complex. Please help.
If you need a remote web developer with 10+yrs of PHP / Node experience please DM me