I'm so fatigued with my job. Opening up my work laptop gives me anxiety. Getting slack notifications gives me anxiety. I'm fatigued with the codebase, I don't care about the product or the customer (banks) and want to be done with it.
On the other hand I'm saving good money and I don't have to deliver to a particularly high level, but even this level of output is an emotional grind.
Feeling stupid because I should be feeling grateful to have a job. Had coworkers furloughed, furloughs at other companies across London, etc. Yet here I am looking to quit?
Facts:
- almost 2 years out of uni, 'Senior' Engineer doing Scala
- London based, under lockdown saving 50-60% of my paycheck
- cheap rent (£650), no dependents, no mortgage, subscriptions: contact lenses, spotify and PAYG phone
- good physical health
- by the time I'll have served out my notice period, I'll have:
- 8 months runway @ £25 a day for groceries and discretionaries,
- 10 months runway @ £15 a day
- got a good amount of social stimulation at my place of residence. Not reliant on virtual happy hours for getting my fix.
- got a software project I'm enthusiastic about. Would be keen to put more time into it.
I think I've already made my decision but it's been good to type this out. Any further input greatly appreciated.
On the other hand I'm saving good money and I don't have to deliver to a particularly high level, but even this level of output is an emotional grind.
Feeling stupid because I should be feeling grateful to have a job. Had coworkers furloughed, furloughs at other companies across London, etc. Yet here I am looking to quit?
Facts:
I think I've already made my decision but it's been good to type this out. Any further input greatly appreciated.