Ask HN: How do I overcome feeling my code will be scrutinized?

I began coding in highschool in 2001 and I did all of my learning through books. A few years later, I use to post small projects on public forums. A lot of the more experienced developers at the time complete put me down for my poor programming practices and lack of knowledge and I developed this fobia of having other developers look at my work. Over the last 15 years, this has had a significant impact on my growth. I never pursued software development (even though as a hobbyist, I enjoy writing code and learning new languages). I took the sys admin route, because I'm only writing scripts and nobody cares. I don't engage in code sharing on github, I avoid meetups like the plague. I've made some personal successful projects in the past but I know my skills are severely limited due to the fact that I simply have not colloborated with more experienced developers. I want to grow as a developer, do I need to go to a therapist?