So I recently had a meeting with my boss to discuss my performance and a self-evaluation form I filled out a while back. In the self evaluation form I said that a personal goal of mine is to contribute to growing the company several times larger than it currently is (we just doubled in size over 5 years, so it's doable). I listed some of the ways I would do this. I was not shy in saying that my reasoning for growing the company was to open new doors for me (think Department Head).
He read this section of my self-eval out loud, and then said "I don't want to break your heart, but doubling, tripling, quadrupling the company isn't a goal for us. We would lose a lot of the benefits we currently enjoy as a small business." I was shocked, disheartened, and now I feel like I'm working a dead-end job. Basically, his mortgage and 4 wheelers are paid off so we must be big enough.
I've designed and built so much for this company thinking the growth would continue, but this is all it's ever going to be. Has anyone got any pointers on how to navigate this situation? I don't even know why I'm posting, just really disenfranchised right now and second guessing my career choices.
He read this section of my self-eval out loud, and then said "I don't want to break your heart, but doubling, tripling, quadrupling the company isn't a goal for us. We would lose a lot of the benefits we currently enjoy as a small business." I was shocked, disheartened, and now I feel like I'm working a dead-end job. Basically, his mortgage and 4 wheelers are paid off so we must be big enough.
I've designed and built so much for this company thinking the growth would continue, but this is all it's ever going to be. Has anyone got any pointers on how to navigate this situation? I don't even know why I'm posting, just really disenfranchised right now and second guessing my career choices.